He may look like a fraggle rock reject ;) but, just like noel fielding,I have a definite crush. He's incredibly funny and intelligent,i'd love to see them do stand up together.
"Like tic needs a toc, like banana's need pajamas and a nun needs cock"
Everyones met a Storm. For those who struggle to think of one...its probably you. This type of personality does get my back up and he nails it perfectly.
This man broke my heart like I've never had before,I literally felt like someone had died.
We had a great relationship but even before I met him I had plans to teach abroad, he knew this,I always felt like he was holding back.
I was falling for him,i thought it was a good thing i was leaving as un requited love is terrible.
At the airport he cried told me he didn't know how he could live without me,that I'd changed his life,that I was unique,he told me I love you,although apparently I love ya and I love you are different things.this will make sense later.
So I was stuck I desperately wanted to stay,I took out the contract school had given me.id have to pay 2k for the cost of the flight,admin for them recruiting another teacher etc.
I cried as I didn't have the money.not only that,I had given up my house,job,I had very little in my account to start a new life in London with him.( he shared a house,rented a room there was no way I could live with him,he didn't have the money to move )
So away I went in tears telling him id be back and I loved him.
I cried on the flight there,travelling to my school and when I got to my apartment.
The next 2.5 months I spent working and socialising very little saving so I could buy myself out of my contract and get home.
During this time I had lost lots of weight due to stress and the diet 2 dress sizes.
I got back to the uk flew into London to see him first he was the only person i wanted to see.
He was off,I knew from his hug.we went back to his room had sex then he told me he had been "loose" while I had been away.he said they meant nothing had " expiatory dates".I started getting upset. He said it wouldn't have happened had I not gone away he was trying to fill a hole I had left.
Then he told me he was engaged to someonelse the first 4 months of us being together!! He was with her 5 years,he met me and thought I was so wonderful he'd leave her for me.I didn't know this was happening.
He then went on to say for this reason I can't commit because he was worried this might happen with me!?! I was a mess by this point crying I felt like I was in a bubble.
Then he went to work I was locked in the flat.I was looking at images of us on his laptop and found a album next to ours called me and avril in London images of the two of them hugging holding hands etc,dated a few days after I left the country.
I just cried on the bed for hours literally till he came home.it was concrete proof it was more them a sex thing he was having a relationship with her,looking at his fb she was from Canada so how that got started I dont know,but it must have been going on a while.
When he came home I couldn't get the words out my life had been stripped away within a day,I was jet lagged,lost and confused with nowhere to go.
He gave me a half arsed hug and said remember I deserve someone who is strong.I pushed away said I am stronger then you know.
He then said I'll be honest I don't love you now but could In the future.he turned away when he told me he was going to a festival with a girl who came into his record shop 2 weeks before I got back " they connected because she had the same taste in vinyl " but nothing was going to happen even tho she liked him and they were going alone together and she fancied him.
Of course I didn't trust him I told him not to go if there was anything between us we needed to build the trust back up
.he then dumped me because I didn't trust him saying trust then a relationship and he also added " I've got to ask myself do I really want to be with someone who gets this moody before their period" then as I was crying said " it's for the best ive broken too many hearts this year" he also said I love ya and I love you are very different,and I miss understood him.what was I meant to think? Tears-I don't know how I can live without you,changed my life? then I love ya with a tearful squeezing hug?
I'd given up a job I liked abroad, my travel plans,for nothing.I now had no job bf or a place to go.
I had to go to my parents.I felt rejection,loss,failure on a huge scale,it took few weeks for it to sink in what had happened.
On top of this my sister had sold all my stuff,the things I left in her safe keeping while I was abroad.
I had to re build my life,it took 6 months to get over it,even then I didnt date,it took a year before I went on a date where I trusted enough to think I was worth loving,and the guy was worth my time.
He used to say that my exs didnt show me my worth, he destroyed any self esteem I had,by far the worst I have been treated by any man.
I loved him with every fiber of my being I could have married him and had his children,the only man I've ever truly felt that way about,despite 2 exs asking to marry me.
I deleted him from fb I actually deleted my account for a month ,got rid of everything he ever gave me,deleted him from my life like he never existed.
I never told him how much he hurt me,I couldn't bring myself to do it. I might do it now nearly two years on to get some closure.I suppose I just want to know what was going on in his head why he did it.
At least I learnt from the experience, used it to move forward as ive done with other past experiences.
I have great getting over a broken heart guide. I hope that I never have to follow that list or pass it on,Boone should ever have to go through it
